Scroll down to the bottom of my home page and read—if you haven’t already—a verse from Ecclesiastes that’s horrified me for years, and for two reasons: I love to read books, and I love to write books. And apparently, it turns out they’re meaningless. Not only that, but they ‘weary the soul.’ Oh crap.
Rick is presently engaged in the herculean business of writing a dissertation for his doctorate in the philosophy of religion. Never mind that philosophy of religion seems a misnomer to me, he just told me that every dissertation ever written is published. Who reads these published books? So far his footnotes take up half of each page and for the love of god, who reads footnotes?
In The Library of Congress there’s a beautiful domed ceiling painted with designs in gold leaf. Beneath the domed edifices, encircling high above the floor of the reading room, are nine statues of authors: Demosthenes, Emerson, Irving, Goethe, Franklin, Macaulay, Hawthorne, Scott, and Dante. They look down, as though observing long reading tables with desk lights so you can check out a book from the stacks and spend an afternoon reading. I wonder if Demosthenes, Emerson, Irving, Goethe, Franklin, Macaulay, Hawthorne, Scott, and Dante would care if you’re reading their work or if they’d get all irritated if you were reading someone like Jane Austin. What a lightweight. Smut, complete smut. Pride and Prejudice, put that garbage down…
Sometimes important books are on display, books like The Grapes of Wrath, by Steinbeck, and Tim O’Brien’s, The Things They Carried. They’re open to important pages, where the author’s gift to the world of letters can be appreciated and cherished. Someday I would like to have a book on display open to an important page. Adults would stroll by and point to it and whisper my name to their children who would have no interest in me or my book and are only biding time until they get the ice cream they were promised after they go through this one last museum. But still. I would like that Awesomeness.
Rick and I have talked at length about his dissertation, and while sometimes I’ve had to tentatively raise a hand like I’m in Philosophy 101 for him to repeat himself or at least stop using the word perdurantist, I’ve learned a lot. In fact I’ve made a few good points myself, after which we both pause and say, hmm, that is a good point and I feel super smart. These conversations always take place in the mornings, before my Adderall wears off. If he refers back to the conversation later in the day I bring up dinner or a TV show, something to distract him because I no longer feel super smart.
A week ago, after I told him I thought it was ridiculous that there are all those dissertations floating around out there that no one reads, Rick said something interesting. He told me that every dissertation has to have a new slant, some way of approaching a new topic, something that’s never been examined before.
But dang, that means that PhD candidates have to come up with narrower and narrower things to write about because, as Ecclesiastes points out, there’s no end to the books already written. How do you find something that’s never been written before? The problem of evil? Crud, Augustine got to that one first.
I wonder if when Ecclesiastes says books weary the soul, it’s alluding to the fact that there are so many books written about stupid things that don’t matter when there are so many things to write about that do matter, or read that do matter. Stuff that makes contact with redemption in this day and age in a unique way, or circles back to the problem of evil, only this time instead of the unjustness of leprosy, the backdrop is violence in the Middle East or metastatic brain tumors.
But then there’s still Jane Austen and John Irving, writers who’s work is a blast to read, but it might be a stretch to find any deeper meaning. However, if you think about it, I suppose Austen made a point about the silliness of ‘marrying up,’ and Irving has an awful lot swimming around in his talented head. I’m not sure there’s a funnier book than A Prayer for Owen Meany, but it’s definitely not just a funny book.
So. Hmm. The problem of Ecclesiastes 12:12.
Perhaps I’m looking at the verse wrong. It doesn’t say reading or writing books is pointless, it only says that there are an awful lot of them and they can ‘weary the soul.’ Trying to get through all of them would weary my soul—and trying to figure them all out would certainly weary my soul.
But reading the Bible, reading Ecclesiastes or the Gospel of John, doesn’t weary the soul. In fact it will lift up your soul. There’s meaning in the non-fiction parts and the figurative parts, there’s meaning in every sentence. Jesus healing a blind man really happened, but it's not just about healing a blind man. It also opens our eyes to the bigger, beautiful story—the story to end all stories. John Irving, Willa Cather, Harper Lee; good job, really, I should hope to write so profoundly, but I’ll never approach something as important as one crossed T of the Bible.
In the end I think it’s a priority thing. Eugene Peterson, in The Message, translates Ecclesiastes 12:12 as:
But regarding anything beyond this, dear friend, go easy. There’s no end to the publishing of books, and constant study wears you out so you’re no good for anything else. The last and final word is this:
Do what he tells you.
Fifty Shades of Gray notwithstanding, there's nothing wrong with a good beach read, but I also love a rich story, where I'm struck by subtexts and deeper meanings, and wonder about the author’s intent and accidental narratives. But I need to remember I shouldn't make it my life’s work to study books when the book to end all books is on my bedside table.
I’m pretty sure that’s the point of Ecclesiastes 12:12. Makes sense to me anyway.
And on that note: I wrote a book. It’s a good book. Buy my book. Read my book.